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Justin Orr
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Justin Orr sparse in the best way possible. The album feels like screamo stripped down to its most pure components and I love it.
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1.
Collapse 04:17
Mark: I’ve been building homes in my head crafted from sand and sticks I’ve been chasing ghosts through windows and crawl spaces We are decaying like ruins Failing to route our growing cracks We are losing solid ground We will keep fading till the last I won’t suffer for this vague justifications There is no meaning to hold us There is only growing dark Stars don’t cry out before their collapse They are prisoners of time just like us All of it will break and slowly slip away All our actions will be forgotten There will be no light to catch your eyes Alex: You couldn’t tear this down With work or effort Standing long before you And long after No voice loud enough To hear you cry From forest to sea There is nothing Nothing I want to live forever Long past when you’re all gone Long past when faces have lost all meaning Just a memory of a memory Long past when the earth breaks and fades away And I float through space I’ll watch every star go out Egin: I’ve been in my head far too long I’ve been losing myself since you left I’ve lost myself All these motions unravel like leaves detaching Withering from the meaninglessness within Nothing, there’s nothing Nothing, to be felt Nothing but the dark This everlasting dark Consume. Conscience. This confession. Is meaningless. The lights are long dead Shadows don’t tell a soul The things they’ve seen
2.
Fate 04:23
Mark: Each day I walk through the same story lines Time wanes as I try to find a new light I swear I will die before my dreams catch me When will do something of value for anyone? Am I just another profit making limb? Do we see what our true challenge is? When will we see past the borders of our own lives? I don’t know if we can build anything better than this This is all we have And we only have ourselves to blame So this is what I am, Faded into the background, An extra in the story of my own life, Trapped in my timeline, Never anything more Never anything less Alex: Forgotten, ignored Like fire, like waste Just dreams, Always dreams My limbs are too big My voice is much too small This flesh was wasted This blood is nothing Will you remember me? Long after I’m gone? Not a day not week, but a year but a life? Or is this just a passage? Egin: Each day New Light Die, Die Day to day to day Feet sore, wings weak Tired hearts line the trees Day to day to day I feel hollow Death seems easier Is it easier? So this is what I am Faded, faded An extra, an extra Trapped in my timeline Never anything more Never anything less
3.
Home 02:56
Mark: It begins like ripples in water, As each memory grows and fades, I swear it’s like we shared a weakness for time. But I’ve been here for years Taking back what I said and Hoping the light would find my eyes again The roof is leaking again, The bricks are growing old, I think there is something inside our house. Alex: I press my fingers into the concrete My dirty fingers Break and bleed Egin: These are the nights we hide away Hands no longer keep you safe Words don’t give any warmth Your touch won’t break this curse I’m so afraid of failing I remember Sleep less nights Cold winter drafts Sweat on my neck Nightmares coming true Demons of my past Still here everyday Demons of my past Still here every Let me go. Let me go. Let me go. Let me go. Let me go.
4.
Age 03:45
Mark: Are my eyes even open? Am I even walking? Leaving torn pieces Scattered on the floor But I’m still awake Alex: Inhale Ribs crack Fall apart You’re breaking The stars aren’t as Bright as they used to be Dull and dark In empty rooms With a storm outside Don’t let them hear you With pieces of flesh Still holding on For I would gladly Trade the day For another night I can’t feel my flesh I’m sleepwalking It gets colder and colder But I’m still sleepwalking I trudge along I’m sleepwalking Like father, like son But I’m still sleepwalking Egin: These bones grow brittle This heart lost count Our love ruins ruins Time defines me, defiles me It’s so cold It’s so calm It’s so still
5.
Blank 03:49
Mark: I am only a word lacking definition Dancing across blank pages My parts do not know each other They form no greater sum The lands we walk shed no tears for us Sights set low lest the light burns our eyes Little gods calling to little kingdoms O grandmother nothing Make us small Fading out Further and further Just a shadow A trick of the light Alex: I’m not there But a ghost But a shadow A memory Of a memory Like the forgotten Like the hopeless Where there is no rot to grow Where there are no voices no words Just a void Never, No never Never give in Even if it doesn’t hurt Even if it’s freedom Egin: Dancing across blank pages My parts don’t know each other No tears for us Burn our eyes Decay Never Never Even
6.
Void 03:17
Mark: What have I done What have I done Just another regret If only I could erase myself If only I could take back the things I’ve done Alex: There are too many voices There are too many noises I could be released I could be free This blood is warm Released with hands like hammers And teeth like knives Little things die This is too much, this is too much I am afraid of myself And I don’t have to feel anymore I can be numb I can be nothing Egin: I’m so ashamed I’m so ashamed Timing Eludes me Forgive me Forget me I hope you know I believe I’ve changed For the worst For the very worst I told you that things would be different I couldn’t have meant it I shouldn’t have said it
7.
Species 04:31
Mark: Half witted idiot Who can't get it right So you found your hind legs And can grunt in sequence Alex: Eye for an eye Limb for a limb Body for a body Nation for a nation This too will fade This too will be forgotten End up saying the same thing Again and again This is the world Not the one we made but the one we deserve We built this With open eyes And willing hands We broke it There’s no putting it back together Egin: Strings pulled above Deception in forms Gaze within Break through Lambs to the slaughter Self righteous bliss Gaze within Break through Have we lost Not enough This will be forgotten This is the world Not the one we made but the one we deserve We built this With open eyes And willing hands We broke it

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released August 21, 2017

mark wilson - guitar, vocals
alex kolanko - bass, vocals
egin kongoli - drums, vocals

recorded, mixed and mastered by alex kurth
photo by amanda elledge

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